i think i'm a damn lucky girl :):) as far as the present is concerned. can't help but to think otherwise when i get reminded of the fact that it's almost the mid of feb and march's gonna come really quickly. i really wish i never have to face it. i've always been rather confident of my abilities and such but no this time i really am not and i don't know how or what i'm going to do on/after that day. sigh.

btw its feb, and just a few days more to my bday, which i wouldn't be spending it with my friends this year since i wouldn't be in sg. but it's also good in a sense (for them) cause they wouldn't feel obliged to go out with me but get to spend proper vdays instead ^^ heeeeeheeeee. some simple pre-bday dinner with close friends would do fine :) since i've never really liked(or rather hated) crowd & superficial/unnecessary social interaction.

heh, am actually kinda excited for CNY, latenight mahjongs, 21, and most importantly, BAKGUA!!! my fav :D oh and did i mention i got my very first angpao alr :D heh.

HAHAHA sorry was just trying out the lifeframe application on my laptop. in the office now ^^

needs to get my body clock back on track, it's 4am and i don't feel any tinge of weariness. thing is, I've got two tuition classes tomorrow. how very great :)

my favourite game is sudoku. call me no life or whatever i don't care :)

i wna watch the imaginarium of doctor parnassus!!
not because it looks exciting or anything but because the female lead has the same name as me heeeheeeeeeee :D

i think this has become so much of a space for me to complain and rant about all these tiny retarded stuffs that for weird reasons have caused temporal and quick changes in my mood.

and maybe i should keep it this way.

ugh i get damn pissed whenever people idk/am not close to talk to me screw off man talking a little is enough don't come questioning me and giving me advices acting all high and mighty when i don't even think you are worth my respect or even qualified to give me any advice. worse still is you come doubting(well yes i consider that doubting even if you don't mean to and were just trying to start a conversation) my abilities just cause i talk less and am an introvert (quoting exact words) comeon, as much as i am an introvert, i might have appeared to be so in front of you probably because i dont wna talk to you. ever considered that possibility? i talk a whole to people i'm comfortable with so much that they wouldn't even think that i am an introvert. you barely know me so don't judge based on those few appearances :)

sigh i just spent an entire day trying to figure out how to use some program, which till now i still have no idea how to do so. i'm such an IT noob. this is so discouraging. i hate to do stuffs which i can't do/am not good at. it sucks cause i tend to have a all or nothing mentality. its like i rather do it good or i dont even try. haha. but things cant always go this way cause i do have to try sometimes, its not an option man. haha. k whatever i shall try to figure out how to do this again bye

i just recalled there used to be a grumble/fuss bout me not giving enough praises to people
well honestly its not that im unappreciative and such
i just dont see the point of saying something i do not mean
i've never given insincere compliments
and neither am i planning to ever do so:)

haha seriously there are at least more than 5 groups of people who have questioned my race.
today my class just randomly asked 'teacher are you malay or chinese?' after i said chinese they proceed to ask 'oh teacher then what sports do you do?' i didn't know i was uhm, tanned to that extent man. haha i thought the cabdriver incident was cool enough alr, after he spoke sth in chinese, he turned around and said 'oh sorry you're malay'. and many others who asked if i was local. haha interesting.

i'm kinda happy i finally know what it is that i wna do next time. okay i actually knew it all along (since years ago), its just that i don't know the right terms for it and what its actually called. so each time people ask i would just say 'idk'/'im currently unsure' cause i don't see the point of explaining. i mean, people ask for the sake of asking or just for the sake of being polite, right? (come on. yes i'm right, admit it.) noone really bothers bout your life or care about what it is that you really wna do, so why even bother elaborating. its just a waste of your effort and time eventually. that's probably why i end up saying 'idk' 'idk yet' alot to people huh, haha.
okay abit of digression up there but yes, now i know clearly what i wna do what i wna be, and i'm glad:)

(btw all you asses -in general- should just shut the hell up and not ask questions when you do not sincerely wna know the answer or do not genuinely care, yes?) don't waste your time, or mine. thank you so very much.